for grandma

4 Oct 2012...
5pm..
i get a call from sis..

i was stunned..
i asking her again again and again..
pls repeat..wat are u saying?
the same ans i have.

grandma just pass away.
trying so hard to be calm.
but i just cant..
i just cant. the naughty tears rolling out..

called mummy if i heard the news wrongly.
mummy crying at another side of the phone..
confirming the news..

without delaying,
i rush back home.
meeting my sis..
packing home and then started journey back to ipoh..
the fear.. hoping that everything is just a fake...
a trick...

we really speed back as i really hope i in time..
i really really hope..
at least i get the last hug from her..

9pm finally i reach home..
the ambulance parking outside my house was just going to leave...
knelled down into the house..
popo. i am back...
popo i am back..
it is too late..that few minutes late to hug her before she goes into the box.

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according to mummy,
my grandpa acc her and my grandma pass away peacefully..
with no sickness.. with no pain.
this is somekind of fu qi..
thx god letting her have this fu qi...
but why u taken her from us so soon..
**wu.....


too much to say...
realizing cry and cry and cry is just so useless...
seeing her lying so peaceful but ntg i can do..
i cant touch her..i cant hug her..
po po i am back..
gong gong suddenly get so ji dong..
i hug him very very tight..

for this moment, no one can be more sad than my gonggong..
she keep him accompanied for so many years..
and he already used to have the life with her...
suddenly she go off without any message..

feel better that all my cousin all my auntie uncle get to rush back the next day
and acc her for her last journey.

beautiful flowers from relatives that cant attend makes the ceremony so grand.
popo favorite purple flowers were bought..

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my popo..
had accompany me 24 years..
from the day i am born.
she showered me with all the loves..
too much memory between us..

she bring me up letting me know how great to have a grandma.
she sayang me alot alot..
she welcomed me back from school everyday during my primary and secondary life..
choosing everything best for me.
every meal time she waited me scared i din have my meals in time.
alot alot more..

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all the family members acc her for the 3 nights..
the moment when the coffin window close..
purple flowers and some other flowers were given and cover the coffin..
popo love flowers alottt..

the moment when the door of the burning place close ..
really cant help..
*sobbb **wuuu...
bye bye popo....

popo
i really miss u alot alot..
i hope all the best for you.
i love you always always..
u will be in my heart forever..

i need to slowly adapt to my family with less one family members...

but i still have alot i know.. hope all my family will be ok.. 

gong gong will be strong to continue on his life.. 

for me.. 

be tough be strong like i always do..

i will be fine

very soon..

popo.. i really miss u alot...