i am an ugly duckling

today went to orthodontic appointment le...

what is orthodontic?? it means putting braces on the teeth to make the teeth neat..

today, dr gave me pink braces.. not 1st time also.. everytime i go also i wear pink tee.. in case dr follow the colour of my tee to decide the colour of the braces.. haha... i dont like any other colour except grey and pink on my teeth.. hehehe

open mouth for almost 1 hour, make my mouth so suan... but, dr efforts even more... i always gave a smile to the dr because, i know they are really a gang of magician to make a girl become more prettier...

no matter how pain, i never will stingy to thanks and give them a smile before i leave..

few years back, struggling whether i should really go put the braces...and with no cons, i finally persued by my former housemate and family to undergo it...

not much people in uni really see how i look like without it.. maybe those i know since foundation will see it before ba..

born to have what a some people say tiger teeth out of order...maybe is yi chuan.. as all cousin from the chen family complete the 'treatment'..and i too forced to have it..

asking why i struggle for...good question...

not for the pain that i will suffer, not for anything else... but if i say for the look?? i really mind..

still rmb the 1st day i wear that braces stepping in the uni.. it was really a hard time.. i not even dare to open mouth big to talk or laugh.. but lucky there is someone who really supports me alot...

i know i am stupid.. but from the bottom of my heart, my confident drop to the most bottom level..i am officially become the ugly duckling...

time goes by.. and now.. used to it for almost 3 years le...sometimes not even realise i have it..

but today the final words from dr,
'still need more time'... really make my heart drop... wishes no longer fulfill.. sob....

waiting the miracle again.. once again...